Day 6: Caught me slippin

Good evening everybody. So someone asked me what day is this as I sat in class, and of course today is day 6.  Wow, it's one day away from being a week on PrEP. All I can say is, it's not bad as I thought it would be. I won't lie as the title says I was kinda slipping today. Didn't really have money for lunch and didn't want to take it on an empty stomach. So I was just going to skip this dose because I was not trying to have those stomach cramps again. That was truly annoying, I don't see how you women go through that once a month.... Ugh it's the worst lol

So has it been worth it so far? I dunno yet. I will say either way it has encouraged me to eat more, be conscientious about taking it, and it has me being very strict on writing every day.. I am liking this discipline. Now if I could get that discipline in other areas of my life I'd be alright. Namely getting this body in shape. I hate being the person on the beach with shorts and a t shirt on while everyone is half naked, if not totally naked. But anyway back to the pill.

As I've mentioned in my other entries that there are numerous reasons I want to take this pill. I van be real honest when I started in this lifestyle I used condoms almost always. If not always. But the longer ive been in the scene the more I have come despise them.. Maybe it reminds me of work and I don't wanna think about work on my off time. Maybe I created some phobia about them in my head over time. But either way it goes. I don't necessarily like them. You can call me whatever you want but I could give two fucks about it. Because at the end of the day I do what's best for me and if you not feeding, fucking with me, or financing I could care less about what you think of me. But I will say shyt feels better without the condoms but I would never recommend any have sex without them because it's too much shyt out there you can catch nowadays. But right now I'm doing what I gotta do to protect me. I'd rather take that pill everyday then worry if that lil slip up cause me to catch hiv, which could have been easily avoided.

I won't say I have never been a thot, but I won't say that's my every day motive. But I have been single for a long time so I have my thot like behaviors that manifest themselves from time to time. This is another barrier for those situations.  Better safe then sorry. Yes day seven is tomorrow and after seven days there should be enough of a presence of the medicine to protect me. But that doesn't mean that season is about to start. But when the time feels right I'm going to go in and that person better be ready. Lol

I dunno why though that everyone thinks that if you get on PrEP you gonna be permiscuous. It just means you wanna protect yourself.. Simple as that, and that's what I'm doing. So any other questions about why I'm on PrEP? I'm ready for them. Until then, Goodnight all.