Day 1: Me and the little blue pill

Soo today was the day I been thinking about for a long azz time. It's my first day on PrEP. I won't even lie, since last night I was scared shitless about actually taking the pill today. I was so paranoid when I woke up that I did a special prayer this morning asking God please let me get through this day with no side effects. I know that's a crazy thing to pray for but I just didn't want to get nauseous from taking this pill. I was also scared what if the side effects kick in while I'm on the train headed to work. So instead of taking it at home before I went to work, I decided to bring it with me to work.

I was told if you normally get nauseous when you take medicine you should take this medicine with food, but if not you can take it without food. Either way it works.. Well I tried to air on the side of good reason so I ate a foot long sub at subway before I took the medicine this morning.

Then the big moment came.... I got some water, opened the bottle and popped that one lil blue pill into my hand. Soooo many things were going through my head, like if this medicine gives me diarrhea please let it happen before the staff come in. I didn't want them to hear me blowing up the bathroom.. Next oh lord please don't let me get nauseous. I was wayyyyy overthinking. So I literally looked at that pill for ten minutes sitting patiently in my outstretched hand. Then I finally popped it into my mouth and drank it down with a full cup of water.

I was just waiting for a side effect to kick in. But guess what?!? No side effects at all, other than I got a tad dizzy for maybe thirty minutes. That was it. When I say I was shocked. I was truly shocked. I actually felt better today, than yesterday. And yesterday I didn't take anything. All that was in the back of my mind was, I hope every day is like this on this pill. The only thing I did notice is I had to pee a lot today. But I think that was partly cause my body is doing its natural detoxing thing. But we shall see tomorrow.

Soo I do have to mention that I'm very happy I did share the moment I had the pill in my hand this morning on Facebook. The discussions that were had, were absolutely amazing. Everyone was respectful and I feel it opened some doors for some people and also helped me identify others who are on this journey with me. Now I know who to turn to when I have questions. That truly made my day. I tried to make sure I responded to everyone as well because if I'm going to be visible about this, it's important to be there when someone has questions. As Audre Lorde said "your silence will not protect you." So speak up, educate others and don't allow someone's naïveté on a subject stop you from educating them in a nice manner. Because we all can learn from each other.

Well now it's time for bed..... So stay tuned for my blog tomorrow after day two on that lil blue pill. If you ever have questions feel free to ask away. That's what I'm here for. Goodnight and sweet dreams..........