So day two has come and gone. It felt like any normal day other than I started eating breakfast everyday because I'm taking the pill. That's abnormal for me because I'm always in a rush in the morning. Well I got to work, ran to Dunkin Donuts which I despise and grabbed breakfast. Then I grabbed the lil white bottle with the blue pills in it and took my PrEP for the day.
Just like yesterday I had a slight dizziness and today also had a lil headache a few hours after taking it but otherwise I was good. Again another day with no nausea or diarrhea issues. Woosah. Thank goodness. Nothing like being in the streets of NYC and one of those issues hit you lol. Literally you'll be Shit outta luck. Lol.
So the hype of me being on PrEP went down, but I won't lie I did get a lot of questions about it last night and today which is great. I love to educate people about things. But it took a few people today to make me question why am I on PrEP right this second. As I walked along the Hudson River tonight on a date, he asked me why am I on PrEP. He then asked have you been really sexually active or plan to be soon. I said no. Then he says so why are you messing up your body taking something you don't need right this minute. He said when that time comes then you should take it but why waste it and do damage to your body if you don't have to. It truly had me questioning my motives behind taking this drug.
I really want to hear from people who have been on PrEP for a while and see what keeps you on it.. What's your purpose for taking it?
I'm going to continue to take it for now since it hasn't bothered me that bad as far as side effects but I won't lie my mind is racing now. I'm thinking back to all the times I possibly could have gotten infected but the grace of God didn't allow it. Cause I've done some dumb shyt in the past before. I'm thinking part of my saving grace is being a top. Doing the penetrating lessens your risk but does not at all get rid of the risk totally. I just wish there truly was a vaccine or some shot that was fda approved to protect you from HIV. I know they are doing trials on the above stated things but I wish they would hurry up. I don't mind taking the pill but he had a point, every time I pop that pill I'm doing harm to my body to protect myself from something I'm not doing. Go figure.
Stayed tuned for my day three journal tomorrow......
What is your opinion on PrEP? And what do you know about it. I'd love to hear your answers.
Why carry a condom? Just cuz you're going on a date don't mean you gonna get some. And shouldn't the bttm carry it to protect himself as his risk factor is higher? These question make as much sense, to me, as your friends reasonong/questioning. I like you am only here by grace and I've done some stupid shit. KNOWINGLY! So why not knowingly take something that helps limit the chance that i'll be safe. I been on PrEP for 2 months or so now... Maybe 3 and haven't had sex since. Doesn't mean I won't though. JUst my opine though
ReplyDeleteI love your opinion and your ideas are spot on with the way I think.. Because when I messed up I knew what I was doing, but I did it anyway. But now I'm protecting myself from those silly situations.
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